I'm writing to let you all know I am back on program!! I had to stop for a little while. I moved into the Ronald McDonald House to be closer to Brooke and spent 15+ hours at the hospital each day. It became impossible for me to follow any bit of a program. Finally, Brooke came home October 1st!
Now that I have a rhythm going at home that works, I've decided to get right back on track! Today I stepped on the scale and to my surprise, and horror, I weigh the most I have ever weighed in my entire life.... Ever. I'm.... In disbelief. I can't even begin to tell you how I felt staring down at that number. I'm ashamed. I'm going to be a bridesmaid in my sister in laws wedding come April and even if I lost 20-30 pounds I'd be heavier than I want to be. Reality is slowly kicking in. I need to take control over my body and my weight loss goals.
Day #1 (again...) begins today. I commit to this program until Christmas. I can and will do this!
